People stopped asking what they could do.
Life kept moving for everyone except us.
My husband, Michael, and I stayed together, although grief changed both of us.
He became quieter.
I became obsessed with details.
Every unidentified young woman in the news.
Every sighting.
Every message from some stranger claiming they had seen Nora in a bus station or grocery store.
Most were nothing.
A few were cruel.
I stopped going to beaches.
I couldn’t hear waves without remembering that afternoon.
So when Michael suggested a weekend in a coastal town almost 600 miles from home, I said no.
Then he asked again.
“It doesn’t have to be about the beach,” he said.
“It is literally a beach town.”
“We can eat. Walk around. Sit somewhere. Leave if you hate it.”
I looked at him.
He looked tired.
We were both in our 40s and had spent eight years arranging our lives around an absence.
So I agreed.
The first day was hard.
I didn’t go near the water.
We walked along the boardwalk instead.
Michael bought coffee.
I pretended not to notice families carrying towels.
Then we passed a cafe with outdoor tables.
A woman stood near the railing talking to one of the servers.
She was maybe 50, maybe older.
She wore a faded turquoise cover-up.
My heart stopped before my brain understood why.
I told myself there must be thousands of turquoise beach cover-ups in the world.
Then the wind lifted one corner.
I saw the yellow sun.
Crooked and hand-stitched.
Exactly where my mother had sewn it.
I crossed the terrace without realizing I had moved.
“Excuse me.”
The woman turned.
“Where did you get that?”
She looked down at herself.
“This?”
“Yes.”
Her expression changed slightly.